jar of hearts

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HH7WXlf9WLk

consider the tree

consider the tree: years and years, if not for centuries, it grows -- planted with purpose or happenstance. it grows upward, purposefully -- reaching for life. it weathers rain and wind, even war. it survives, down to its core, it fights from its roots to its leaves, hundreds of feet, to survive.

and then, imagine, what it must be like, to have a stranger pass, and with an idle thought decide, with the swing of an axe to end that life. For no real reason or rhyme. Maybe for money. Maybe to fill the time. in just a few strokes, the results of a years and years of growth crashes downward, dead.

but look -- have you ever seen a stump of a tree after some time -- a leaf -- a growth of new life peeping from the ruin there? it grows again, risen from the roots.

oh! consider the tree: even when killed it survives.

consider the corn

i consider the corn:
it bends and it bows

planted in rows
where the farmer has sown

each sturdy stalk sprouts on its own --
it does not look and bemoan
where the farmer has thrown-

it takes, good or not, what its given
and makes the best of it: its driven;

death is an option, but its choice is to grow
oh consider the corn! it grows where it's sown!

i gazed long at the field and had a lesson in thought:
i must grow where i'm planted, no matter the plot --

be it dry or wet, be it cloudly --
beaten by wind, eaten by rot --
-- forgotten or not --
think!

what if.... i grow roots in my plot ?

oh, the seed of my life was sown before time
by the toss of a hand
so much bigger than mine

i consider this hand that placed me with care --
and know it devined
the spot and the time, the rain and the shine
of my planting here --

emily dickinson

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The Mountains - grow unnoticed -
Their Purple figures rise
Without attempt - Exhaustion
Assitance - or Applause

In Their Eternal Faces
The Sun - with just delight
Looks long - and last - and golden
For fellowshilp - at night -

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When I hoped, I recollect
Just the place I stood -
At a Window facing West -
Roughest Air - was good -
Not a Sleet could bite me -
Not a frost could cool -
Hope it was that kept me warm -
Not Merino shawl -

When I feared - I recollect
Just teh Day it was -
Worlds were lying out to Sun -
Yet how Nature froze -

Icicles upon my soul
Prickled Blue and Cool -
Bird went praising everywhere -
Only Me - was still -

And the Day that I despaired -
This - if I forget
Nature will - that it be Night
After Sun has set -
Darkness intersect her face -
And put out her eye -
Nature hesitate - before
Memory and I -


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To wait an Hour - is long -
If Love be just beyond -

To wait Eternity - is short -
If Love reward the end -

the pain is gone

nice new song from derulo - i like the way the lyric 'the pain is gone' sounds...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ESdn0MuJWQ&feature=fvw

Lisa Scinta

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vpnlgg5aCIY&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FgY5Me4afOg&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z_-sJBuelpA&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gO89Xq345nA&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jYwLvH-PnB8&feature=fvw

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cb0fAyFYfyo&feature=related

wish right now

i heard this song some time ago - just looked it up on youtube. i really like this video created by this girl. it's so potent! well done --

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zun2aeOjpss&feature=related

http//www.youtube.com/watch?v=No8e0OE9QAU

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fm5S9EqGiIc&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a_YR4dKArgo

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CHVhwcOg6y8&a=KYW3TjPZUqA&playnext_from=ML

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kxfxDycUVnE

coming to my senses

i smelled wild mint for the first time on a path to the beach last wknd.

i smelled wet mulch and mowed grass warming in the spring sunshine this afternoon.

it's true: you can't truly miss what you never had. all the time i couldn't smell those things, i never thought, 'poor me.' now i smell them and my life has a while new dimension.

man's best friend

the best thing about my day: steve training wrigley on a beautiful summer evening in the empty lot next to our neighbor, sunset behind me, sitting on the truck bed, watching him, sunglasses on. fluff from the cotton trees in the air, orange sunset glowing. watching a smart yet simple man in a simple moment, doing what he loves. a good man, with a tender heart, evident in the care he shows all that he loves.

i walked to my home, with my camper and flowers and american flag.

it was a good moment and it was mine.

watch out justin beiber

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jqMixeRhGfg

i love the blonde girl in the background

god has a sense of humor i think.

two black cats have crossed my path within the last week.

i feel lucky.

i had a beautiful day today. :)

i made it

i made it. there's no doubt.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uWHH1Updhig

johnny:

http://http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o22eIJDtKho


i first heard this song in middle school -- not Johnny's version, but I admired his version when it came out --

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X6gyUotqwPM

the same night i dreamed about the superheros vs supervillians my mother dreamed i shipwrecked and was lost at sea.

oh my.

good vs. bad

i had a dream last night.

i dreamed that all the superheros and supervillians of the world stopped and put down their differences for one hour to attend the funeral of a superhero.

they all sat in chairs with their masks and costumes on and listened to someone give a eulogy.

i was there, and dr. evil was there, and supermodel christina brinkley was there as a feme fatale' superhero for some reason -- and austin powers I recall was there too. but there was an evil guy trying to do something behind the scenes, and the brinkley hero tried to stop him and he did something that turned her into glass, and she shattered. i'm not sure if i was a villian or a hero, but i saw it. lol.

it reminded me of how the british and german soldiers put down there differences during WWI on christmas eve and had that truce.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Christmas_truce

it reminded me of a funeral i saw for a former governor at the state house while i was an intern there. i watched from the balcony as another former govenor gave a eulogy while the casket sat in the rotunda and all the democrats and republicans sat next to one another amicably.

odd

i had the oddest sensation just now. that i have nothing left to say. i'm not over-sexed. i'm over-txt.

suddenly

they came to me. in the car. my mind, so odd.

i confuse so many things still -- made with maid and weight with wait ... and so many other words when writing still, and so many other things lost... just like they poured out the back of my mind...like sand through a sieve.

i still get lost driving to common everyday places, and lose my thought mid-sentence and in embarassment have to admit 'i forget where i was going with that', have an even worse memory than i ever had --- but suddenly, suddenly these lyrics came to me so clearly, so very clearly...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UYIAfiVGluk

and how ironic yet, oh! that bitter sweet irony: they apply more now than ever.

wicked

i saw the musical 'wicked' today w/mom and tracy. it was excellent in all regards. this song stuck out to me 'i'm not that girl':

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S_Hk0Cm3fIg

however, as i sat there i began to think (reference: main character ferrio/strawman)--

being the philosphical person i am-- i began to think, about which character i was more like, or what each witch (good/bad) represented. then i realized they are part of a whole, and that...

i was both.

this song also stuck out to me:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mM1fQBZKwzM